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★ THE AU ★
ALTERNATE EXPLANATION
Maul knew that his story was coming to an end and while stewing in his obsessions on Malachor he had found himself more grieved than angry. Weak and conflicted, he wasn't even sure he wanted to serve the darkside any longer. It was a long time coming. The prickles of doubt began some time ago and while the Sith had taken everything from him, he knew nothing else. It was the only way he understood how to operate.
Hope found him in the shape of one Ezra Bridger. It started out genuine, it really did, but again... he was flawed, he was a darksider and he was always going to be a darksider. So back to his old ways he went. Desperate to seek the last thing that made sense to him: Kenobi. Causing death and destruction along the way. Regaining a sense of self; regaining power. Perhaps it would be different this time.
When the holochrons were combined, Maul saw more than just the location of Kenobi. He saw Luke, he saw the fall of the Empire, and he saw his death. When he found his old enemy it was not his intention to kill the man him nor do harm to Luke, though he suggested both. He knew that he had become a wound and he could play the role to engage the man into battle and finally end this story, his story.
The game he played with Kenobi while they moved through stances and footwork was not because he hadn't learned or grown; not because he was seeking to win. It was because he wanted to lose at the hands of someone worthy, dying in much the way that he had killed Qui-Gon Jinn all those years ago.
As Maul laid in Kenobi's arms, he did not ask if it was the Chosen One that Kenobi protected. No, he knew. He did not proclaim that they would be avenged though he did wish for it. In the very last seconds of his life, as the red slowly drained out of his golden eyes, he asked: "Could you ever forgive me, Master Kenobi?" To the response of, "I already have."
With that, he drew his last breath and passed through the force. No more pain. No more fear. No more hate. Lay your head to rest, now. Go toward the light. Maul finally found peace. Perhaps, though we will never know, Obi-Wan knew the truth of why Maul had come, too.
The fox came to him as he was on the pyre. The last thing in his universe that he saw was not only that he had been forgiven but that he had been respected. Needless to say, Maul is unlikely to turn a new leaf so drastically straight away but does have a desire to change and he has felt it, tasted it, if only briefly, so briefly. For just a second he felt the light.
Maul has a great potential to both be truly independent and loyal to those who have earned it or to whom he finds worthy; to serve a purpose outside of himself and people who he alone has chosen to serve; to live in the grey and find a balance between light and dark while still honoring his passions, his anger, and his pain. To lean into his curiosity and form his own code; his own way of living.
Here he can define who he is as a Dathomirian instead of a Rogue ex-Sith and more importantly discover who he is as a person and that he IS a person, not a slave, not a monster. He can uncover what actually matters to him, what he likes, what be believes. A real second chance though it will take some time and some patience. He has literal conditioning to undo and brainwashing to unlearn.
It may take some time and many mistakes along the way but he is willing to walk a different path than the one he always knew; to stop and consider a different course of action from that which he would normally take. In balance, however precarious, the Force will guide his way. He will be free.
Hope found him in the shape of one Ezra Bridger. It started out genuine, it really did, but again... he was flawed, he was a darksider and he was always going to be a darksider. So back to his old ways he went. Desperate to seek the last thing that made sense to him: Kenobi. Causing death and destruction along the way. Regaining a sense of self; regaining power. Perhaps it would be different this time.
When the holochrons were combined, Maul saw more than just the location of Kenobi. He saw Luke, he saw the fall of the Empire, and he saw his death. When he found his old enemy it was not his intention to kill the man him nor do harm to Luke, though he suggested both. He knew that he had become a wound and he could play the role to engage the man into battle and finally end this story, his story.The game he played with Kenobi while they moved through stances and footwork was not because he hadn't learned or grown; not because he was seeking to win. It was because he wanted to lose at the hands of someone worthy, dying in much the way that he had killed Qui-Gon Jinn all those years ago.
As Maul laid in Kenobi's arms, he did not ask if it was the Chosen One that Kenobi protected. No, he knew. He did not proclaim that they would be avenged though he did wish for it. In the very last seconds of his life, as the red slowly drained out of his golden eyes, he asked: "Could you ever forgive me, Master Kenobi?" To the response of, "I already have."
With that, he drew his last breath and passed through the force. No more pain. No more fear. No more hate. Lay your head to rest, now. Go toward the light. Maul finally found peace. Perhaps, though we will never know, Obi-Wan knew the truth of why Maul had come, too.
The fox came to him as he was on the pyre. The last thing in his universe that he saw was not only that he had been forgiven but that he had been respected. Needless to say, Maul is unlikely to turn a new leaf so drastically straight away but does have a desire to change and he has felt it, tasted it, if only briefly, so briefly. For just a second he felt the light.
Maul has a great potential to both be truly independent and loyal to those who have earned it or to whom he finds worthy; to serve a purpose outside of himself and people who he alone has chosen to serve; to live in the grey and find a balance between light and dark while still honoring his passions, his anger, and his pain. To lean into his curiosity and form his own code; his own way of living.
Here he can define who he is as a Dathomirian instead of a Rogue ex-Sith and more importantly discover who he is as a person and that he IS a person, not a slave, not a monster. He can uncover what actually matters to him, what he likes, what be believes. A real second chance though it will take some time and some patience. He has literal conditioning to undo and brainwashing to unlearn.
It may take some time and many mistakes along the way but he is willing to walk a different path than the one he always knew; to stop and consider a different course of action from that which he would normally take. In balance, however precarious, the Force will guide his way. He will be free.
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